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30 days of truth

This is supposed to be the last of the 30 days of truth. I don’t want to do it. “A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself” is not a prompt that interests me. Maybe that means I failed (that would just be so awful!) (I wish sarcasm came through better in text) but I managed all of the rest of them, one way or another, so I can live with failing this last prompt. I just don’t have any interest.

I’m going to go back to writing a few days a week again rather than trying for every day. I think that works better with my schedule and my interests.

I’m going to a conference today. Did you know that there has been a serious upswing in the bedbug infestations in the United States? One company that gets rid of them without chemicals is giving away plush bedbugs at the conference, so I’m going to bring a bedbug home tonight. I think that is hilarious.

30 Days of truth: Day 29

Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.

I want to learn how to sit still and read or watch TV without worrying about the things I ought to be doing. Why? Because right now I just can’t do it. I manage maybe ten or fifteen minutes at a stretch, and then I feel like I should be doing something else. I have a really hard time relaxing. When I actually manage it, though, I really enjoy myself.

Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself

30 Days of truth: Day 28

Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?

Jump around, yell, be incredibly happy, and try to figure out exactly how that could have happened, considering our history. After that, I’d wait until after the first trimester and the amniocentesis results to tell anyone other than Xander.

Next: Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.

30 Days of truth: Day 26

Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?

Once, when I was a teenager. Why? Because I was a teenager and life was complicated and confusing and I was angry and sad. I got over it after I got a good night’s sleep. There are too many interesting things in the world to decide to walk away, and the more I learn, the more things I find that are even more neat.

Next: Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?

30 Days of truth: Day 24

Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs.

Hi Daniel,

I miss you.

Love,
Wendryn

Cats, so we could sing along together
Phantom of the Opera, the piece with the organ, because we used to try to make each other laugh through that
Hard Day’s Night
Joseph and the Amazing Technicolor Dreamcoat, but only the pieces you liked best
Springtime for Hitler and Germany from The Producers, because the first time I heard it was you singing it in a car and it cracked me up
Let’s Go Fly a Kite and A Spoonful of Sugar from Mary Poppins – even if I hated it from hearing it so often, you did love that movie
The Lion King – you liked all of the music from that, too

I’m sure I’m forgetting a lot of pieces. Music was very much a part of our relationship.

Next: Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.

30 Days of truth: Day 23

Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.

I’m not particularly worried about about what-ifs. I wish I had learned to be a little more laid back earlier in life. There are a lot of things I’d love to do at some point, but nothing that I wish I’d already done because it would have made a huge difference.

Next: Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs.

30 Days of truth: Day 22

Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.

I don’t know how to answer this. There are a very few things I regret, but, at the same time, if I changed anything I would not have ended up here, and here is pretty good.

I wish I hadn’t hurt anyone, ever, never hurt feelings or said something stupid or made someone feel bad. I don’t know all of the times I did hurt someone, of course, but if I did, I am truly sorry. I did not intend to hurt anyone.

Next: Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.

30 Days of truth: Day 21

Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?

Show up with flowers or a card or something. That’s easy. I don’t think any of my friends and I have been without arguments over something, even if it’s minor. If it’s a strong friendship, it doesn’t matter. If they need me, I’m there if I can possibly get there.

Next: Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.